well its somewhat strange that i love to write yet i never blog! i used to blog on another site but there was always so much i could say without friends judging me. they found my posts entertaining but i rambled alot about other things besides myself. the hardest thing to talk about is me.
what can i say to introduce myself. im calvin. i love tennis. im in my 20s and i didnt get into tennis until my late teens. i used to fall asleep when it was on tv but i dunno y, one day all of a sudden i watched this one match with martina hingis and bam!...i was like "wow! she makes it look so easy." i started to see another side to tennis. it was amazing! before that, tennis was almost like golf for me. it was mundane and repetitive and slow. sorry im not trying to offend golf lovers lol. after that one match i knew i had to play tennis.
i never had the support of my family like most suburban families. i was the youngest but my brother was actually the bratty one. he got everything and i was always left the one who dissapoints in the family. i supposedly wasnt the smartest cuz Bs are a disgrace i guess! hahaha i was happy so i was always proud of myself. i was always really independent and self motivated because my parents were never there for me. when i used to ask if i could play an instrument or a sport or whatever it was they would give me an excuse. first it was money but when we had money they would tell me they had no time. then when they did have time they would say they didnt see the importance of outside activities. school was number one. blah!
this has always made me such a determined person. i keep little to no contact with my family. if u knew me in person u would be surprised. everyone assumes im a huge family person cuz im so caring and loving in life. what i want is to have a perfect family of my own one day. i would make sure they had everything they needed and the support to excel in life.
oh yea im rambling. back to tennis!
well i developed this love for tennis. i had no money to train so i decided i would learn on my own. i bought myself a racquet to start off. my parents had a business and during the down time i would sneak off in the back alley and hit or just throw a ball against the wall. i would watch endless amounts of tennis on tv and learn that way. i was always more visual. i cant sit and read a book like most people haha.
i did an internship in florida for school and they are known to have the best tennis there! i remember i went to a tennis wall before work each day to hit. one day a coach noticed me. he was like "wow ure really good. how long have u been playing?" i told him i had only played for a year. he was quite surprised and said "oh wow i assumed u played for about 10 years." well he told me his client didnt show up and if i wanted to learn from him. of course i did! i found out that he was actually the tennis director and charged like $90 an hour. he said their loss is my gain since its already charged to them haha.
from that point on i made it a goal to become the best tennis player i can. its tough though. im on my own supporting myself and i feel like compared to other countries, america is so focused on money. its a tough juggle since i have to work. oh well. a year and a half ago i spoiled myself and paid for myself to goto some academies in florida. boy is it expensive! every kid i met had rich parents. there was one point i couldnt afford to stay in the academy and i stayed at the motel 8 down the road. i didnt tell anyone but it was so hard lying!! hahaha. its kinda funny when i think about it now.
i hope to play in the challengers or the futures one day but even those people are good. i would say i would like to play in a grand slam but thats going to be the next next did i say next step? haha. its surprising. i feel like im so behind. i see those who can afford it train and are two steps ahead of me for every step i take. sucks. its ok though im a survivor!
well thats enough for the first post. ill continue a second post because the topic is totally different but im sure interesting.
Calvin
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